I know that it has been a few days since my last post. I've been quite busy with my mamacita. We visited 3 papercrafting stores and had so much fun talking crafting. I love having someone to chat with like her. She's one of my best friends and having her with me is like a little piece of heaven. The kids loved having her here too. Sweetpea cried when she left. So did I.
Right now I'm working on the layouts and card for Scrapbook Circle for my special guest appearance. I've finished 2.5 layouts so I'm on my way! It's my first design spot so I'm a bit nervous. As soon as my work goes public, I'll post it here. Until then I guess I'm just a big tease.
I'm pretty sure that I didn't land the Design Team position that I so very much wanted. Today was the day that I was supposed to hear via email and unfortunately, I don't have any new messages. I'm feeling a little bummed, but I'll try again in 6 months. Hopefully, by then, my art will be at their level. I knew that it was a huge long-shot, but I'm still disappointed. I think that tonight will be a quiet one so that I can regroup and refocus. It is during times of disappointment that the fearful little girl inside me tries to talk me out of trying again. She tries to convince me that I'm only kidding myself when I call myself an artist and that I should just give it all up. It isn't her fault, she's only trying to protect my tender heart. However, I've learned that at times like this, when that little girl is so anxious and yelling so loudly, that I am about to take a giant leap forward in my creativity. I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and everything will fall into place. So even though I'm a bit saddish, I'm still hopeful and I still have confidence that I will continue to grow. Each one of these rejections has forced me to focus on my artistic weaknesses and change them to strengths. Eventually, I will land that dream DT position and I'll be ready to give my art to the world. Until then, I'll keep working and keep improving.
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